Tuesday, May 4, 2010

A SNAKE!!!

Well, I was getting ready to go and vote when my mom let out a scream and closed the front door.  I went to the door, but I didn't open it.  There are 2 little windows at the top of the door, so I climbed into a chair and peeked out.  Sure enough, there was a long black snake sliding its way across the front porch.  I called Rodney at work and I tried to watch the snake from my spot safely inside the house as long as I could.  I was hoping that Rodney could leave right away and then come and shoot the snake.

Unfortunately, he did not get home in time.  Eventually, all I could see of the snake was its tail.  I did not open the door to see just where the snake was headed and I realize that was a grave mistake.  If I knew how to operate a gun, I would have shot the snake myself.  But, I don't know--yet--and I was not about to go hoe to hoe with that snake.  It was too big.  This was not your regular garden snake.

My nerves are trying to recover.  I think I'll let my kids sleep in the bed with me.  I have begun a decluttering process and I feel like I am liquidating--EVERYTHING MUST GO!  I am boxing up baby clothes, toddler clothes, my coats/sweaters--leather included, and whatever else I don't regularly use.  I feel like every lump, bump is a suspect.  Everything black is suspect.  Every pile is suspect.

I am really going to have to calm down.  I have been screaming at Emmai who insists on being in the way, jumping up and around, refusing to sit down.  Did I mention he can't shut up either?  It's dark now and I just gotta pray that God will rebuke any and all thoughts that are not like him.  God rebuke any and all fear.  I refuse to be tense or afraid.  I just left the doctor today to check on my blood pressure.  It was sort of high then.  I know it is probably really high right about now.

I hate what-ifs because they torture you.  I keep wondering what would've happened if I would have just opened the door and peeked out to see where the snake was going.  I still feel like it went into a hole that may have lead it into the house.  But, wouldn't I have seen it by now?  I sure hope so.  Lord, if the snake did come into the house please lead it back out in the name of Jesus!  Thank you, God.  Amen!